Don't you think it was hard?

These past few days have just been emotional for me.
I do not know why though.
I honestly hate that feeling you get when you finally see someone,
and have so much to say, and you're ready to say it,
but oh no.
someone has to ruin everything for you.
maybe you were going to apologize, to say sorry.
maybe you were going to say that you miss that person.
maybe you were going to say that you hate that person.
maybe you were going to say that you think about that person often.
but someone just has to come and ruin it.
you walk up ready to spill everything,
but stop in your tracks.
wanting turn around, ready to cry, but you have to keep going forward.
but not in their direction.
and all you can think about at night is how you wish you would've said something.
but you didn't.
because you couldn't.
so you're left with the dilemma...
should I just call them and say it, or just forget everything and move on?
the feeling that you made eye contact, and they saw you about to burst into tears,
haunts me.