What I Learned From Middle School

Well, I've learned a ton of things.
You cannot give up on yourself.
It's better to be active during the school year, than to be doing nothing.
You have to pay attention in Algebra 1...
You should have a small group of friends that you trust,
because most people complain about stuff being spread about them..
well, then don't tell people everything about you?
You need to blog.
Make a tumblr, and blog.
Blog your feelings away, because if you need to vent I'm sure someone on there will listen.
Stay on top of your grades, especially if you're taking a high school class.
It's better to be a "nerd" and smart than act stupid and be popular.
because grades matter more than anything.
And lately people have been saying swag is now hip.
but..who cares about "SWAG"?
It's just a term.
Like any other word, which is also something I learned.
You have to ignore people with their violent words.
Oh, and anyone who says they have swag can tell me that when they're flipping me burgers.

schooooooooool

Middle school has been really bad for me.
I guess I'd say seventh was my best year because that's when things really changed for me..
and each school year I've been a totally different person.
Over the years, I've learned a ton about myself.
In sixth grade, I was a total brat, and rude, and I was just an ugly person inside.
I can hardly remember anything that happened then, it's like that was a total black out.
and what seemed to be, one of the worst years of my life.
In seventh grade, I met some of the most amazing people who are now in my life as my best friends.
I met Silvia who is honestly one of my main best friends.
She's the first one a turn to for everything.
And I met Kenny, who is one of my other best friend's and I love that boy to death,
and even though he ticks me off ALL the time, he's always there at the end of the day.
In eighth grade I met some great people,
and it's been a difficult struggle for me but I've learned a lot.
I feel like I learned part of who I am this year and I couldn't have done it without anyone.
But, I'd just like to give a special thanks to anyone who has put up through my worst,
because that just means you deserve my best. 

Farewell.

Well, today is my last day of school...
It's kind of sad.
But, I'm glad I get to get away.
Even though I'll miss everyone.
And to fill that feeling, I'll just tumblr at home.
so, yuhhhh.
bye bye.

DEUCES.

I wish

I wish I could talk to owls
I wish to fulfill my dreams
I wish Pokemons were real
I wish to see my cousin once more
I wish I could have all the sweets in the world
I wish some people would smile everyday
I wish I was a filmmaker
I wish I had a bigger fridge
I wish I could have a monkey
I wish I could be a fish
I wish I could leave Clarksville
I wish I could have a paint fight
I wish I could have a cute laugh
I wish I never will grow up
I wish I'll have eternal life
I wish I'll find my soul mate
I wish I will never give up on someone
I wish I will never get cancer
I wish I had more books
I wish my Daddy never broke his hips
I wish I never hurt mine.
I wish I could run faster
I wish this world was at peace
I wish my great grandpa hadn't done what he did
I wish I was as cute as a cupcake
I wish I could eat anything I wanted and never get chubby
I wish I  was super woman
I wish for all of my friends and family to have good health and happiness
I wish for you
I wish for my cousin to come home safe
I wish I never lose anyone in my life ever again
I wish I had the courage to punch you
I wish to live my life to its fullest
I wish school was over and that it was summer
I wish to have a great journey on this roller coaster we call life.

biggest fears.

bees.

spiders.

getting pants-ed. 

breaking my phone.

lava.

dandelions. 

getting yelled at.

pigs.

dead puppies.

knives.

picking up my home phone.

not living up to my potential.

dying.

being eaten alive.

being stung by a jellyfish.

the world ending this year.

being spit on by a camel.

being stuck on a Ferris wheel.

being stranded in the desert.

losing any body part.

cancer.

diabetes.
horses.
I absolutely hate horses.

oh, and lets not forget,.

Kenny. :)

Silvia.

THIS IS DEDICATED TO YOU.
Let me start off by saving I absolutely love you to death.
We met weirdly, but I'm happy we did.
We weren't that close at all last year, and it sucked.
But this year, we're like peanut buttaaaa and jelly.
and I absolutely would die without you.
You're one of my best friends, and whenever something is wrong, you're usually the first person I vent or complain to.
I literally thank god I met you.
Because you're literally always there for me,
and even when I'm about to freaking cry,
you always make me laugh.
Whether it's because you burp,
you send me random pictures,
or make weird faces at me,
I always end up smiling.
You've been for me since last year,
and very few people stick around.
If I'm upset, you always come and hug me.
Just like today,
I was so upset, and had soap in my hands but you didn't care,
you still were there and made me smile.
Even if it did mean getting the bathroom all soapy.
You're one of my best friends, and I could never thank you enough.
Thank you for making me laugh today, I needed it.
seriously.
& Stop being so cute.
I love you to death.
oh & poop.

breathless..

There's nothing to do,

nothing to say,

all because you take my breathe away.
I can't help how I feel,
you make things seem so real.

You're my best friend, 

and I don't think I can let you go.

I try to hide my feelings for you,

but everyday they always unfold.

I smile when you walk by,

always hoping I just caught your eye.

You know my flaws, 

but still ignore them all.

I ask the question, "Should I tell him" all the time,

seems like that's the only thing that crosses my mind.

I know it won't matter,

because your heart is already taken.

When I heard that, I felt shaken.

Shattered- 

like my body was broken,

all thanks to the words you had spoken..

that Sunday night before school starts up again and you just do this...

reading

lately, I have been reading a lot of books, and it's consuming my life.
except for when I have soccer.
It's weird, but I've read all of Nicholas Spark's novels...
and now I'm working on reading all of Sarah Dessen's.
I've read about 4 or 5 of her books, and I'm on one right now!
Yay

Don't you think it was hard?

These past few days have just been emotional for me.
I do not know why though.
I honestly hate that feeling you get when you finally see someone,
and have so much to say, and you're ready to say it,
but oh no.
someone has to ruin everything for you.
maybe you were going to apologize, to say sorry.
maybe you were going to say that you miss that person.
maybe you were going to say that you hate that person.
maybe you were going to say that you think about that person often.
but someone just has to come and ruin it.
you walk up ready to spill everything,
but stop in your tracks.
wanting turn around, ready to cry, but you have to keep going forward.
but not in their direction.
and all you can think about at night is how you wish you would've said something.
but you didn't.
because you couldn't.
so you're left with the dilemma...
should I just call them and say it, or just forget everything and move on?
the feeling that you made eye contact, and they saw you about to burst into tears,
haunts me.

stuuff I love.

always having your nails painted

London

when you know your best friend's phone number by heart

writing on a foggy window

eating Nutella
the summer
being shorter than half the people you know
soccer
Thomas Muller
San Diego

laying in bed
the smell of a new book
wearing glasses
curly hair
Polaroid cameras
Reading the Notebook
Obsessing over Nicholas Sparks
spending a day with your parents
freshly baked cookies
listening to your favorite song
having the old nano Ipods
messy braids
floral bedding
black sandals
stone rings
crying every time you watch the last song
The Hunger Games
going to midnight premieres
The Big Bang Theory
having the best friends in the world

Big Bang Theory.

If you don't watch this show, I feel bad for you...

it's amazing.

I love Sheldon...

Raj...

Leonard...

Penny...

and oh yeah,

Howard.

Monday.

This day usually starts off bad..

you wake up, and it hits you.

School.

Better get ready.

But they always end great.

Want to know why?

I don't have soccer so I can go home, relax.

Read a book, or at least part.

Eat junk food, watch a CSI or NCIS marathon and sleep.

That's my perfect day.

2012.

This year has already brought me a ton of stuff.

and taught me so much about myself.

and about people are.

"January taught me how beautiful life can be..

and how amazing people are.

and how when someone great comes into your life, that you shouldn't leave them.

February taught me that people can just leave your life.

Without notice, they can just go.

Without a reason.
Just because of a passing..

March taught me that it's okay to hold onto the past, but never look back.

Even if people are messing with your head.

April is teaching me how to forget."

books.

Currently I have been very obsessed with books.

I guess all my life too.

But in the past months...

I've finished the Hunger Games series.

And I'm planning on reading it again.

I've read "The Last Song" for about the fifth time.

I've read a book twice called "Crash, Test, Love".

I've read the Percy Jackson series about three times.

Even the series closely related to it.

But it only has one book..as of now.

I've read the Messenger, and The Giver twice.

I've read the Harry Potter Series.

I've read "The Notebook" about a thousand times.

I can't think of anymore but I have a ton of books shoved in my closet..

Though...

I'm currently reading "The Lucky One".

And I love it to death.

I also want to read Dear John and A Walk To Remember..

Ahh, so much man.

People who don't read scare me, I mean...what do they do in their spare time?

On Friday nights I read a book, and try to see if a movie was made out of it.

If it is, I buy it or rent it, and watch it.

Just so I can compare the two...

Whenever someone says "Hey! Wanna go somewhere?"

I always suggest the Library.

Without books, I don't know what I'd do...

Or what I'd do without this guy..

.

Nicholas Sparks, and his books...

oh lord.

obsession over here.

GUISE.

GUESS WHO IS GOING TO SEE THE MIDNIGHT PREMIER OF THE HUNGER GAMES TONIGHT?!

THIS GURRRRRRRRRRRRL.

What is wrong with our society.

It's like, people are set up to try to achieve this idea of "perfection".
when that's clearly impossible...
some people say not everyone is beautiful..um, shut up.
You. Are. Wrong.
There are what? About 6 billion people in the world, right?
I bet if all of us we're in an arena, and each one of us had to walk up on a stage,
and someone would ask the crowd if the person who walked up was beautiful...
that AT LEAST one person would say that they were.
So what is wrong?
It's the pressure to be perfect.
and all those IDIOTS who like to hurt people.
I don't see why..when all you are is hurting yourself.
 all these mean comments, and words being thrown at people everyday,
just to bring them down,
can stop.
because it's obvious that you're just insecure too.
but you want to know what's amazing?
seeing the people who have every right to be upset, or maybe even hate the world...
triumph and be happy.

think before you speak.

The Lorax.

The other day I saw the Lorax.

I honestly didn't think it would be a big deal.

I thought it would be a cute film.

I thought it wouldn't have any impact on me.

But...it did.

It's strange to think about because it was only a movie that was less than two hours long.

But it really made me think...

especially when the Lorax was talking to the Once-ler in the movie...

Once-ler: "Nothing is going to stop me."

*last tree is cut down*

Lorax: "I might not be able to, but that will."

It made me want to jump up and just tell everyone who is destroying the environment to stop.

You know, it really makes you think..

I recommend everyone see it,

because you won't regret it.

I know I didn't.

Top 5 movies that have impacted my life in some way...

Numero one- The Help.

Numero two- Precious.

Numero three- The Lion King.

Numero four- A Walk to Remember.

Numero five- Forest Gump.

KONY 2012.

Most people didn't know about this until yesterday...

but there is a lot of cruelty going on in the world...

especially a man by the name o Joseph Kony.

He abducts children while they're asleep, or during any time.

He deforms their faces...

turns the girls into sex slaves...

and the boys into a soldiers...

and sometimes he forces the boy to kill their own parents.

A lot of people are becoming involved, and I see why.

I want to get involved in it but here's the thing...

shouldn't we fix our own country first?

We're being kind and considerate...

but if we needed someone...

who would be there for us?

No one.

Just like before.

Yes, I understand everything, I support it.

People are forgetting that violence like this is going on around the world with other people too.

That's when I call people idiots.

It's sad, I do support it, and will do whatever I can to help...

but if people want to help, help our country...

the same thing is happening in our country, EVERY DAY.

right now

and people are only paying attention to other countries..

People should AT LEAST pay attention to their own country.

my weekend...

it's going to be so busy.

Today is Friday..obviously, and I have one of my closest friend's birthday party to go to..

which is at 7 at Chuck E Cheese's.

I have started a trend because I had my party there :D

Saturday, I have another Chuck E Cheese's party to go to for my friend Katey.

Sunday, I'm going running with some of my friends.

We're required to run two miles at least from our soccer coach...

but we're running 4.

I'm going to be tired by the end of the weekend..

but it's all worth it! :)

socccccccccer.

It dominates my life.

From early morning conditioning on the weekends, to practice all night long everyday...

it's something I do passionately. 

It can tick me off sometimes, and get in the way of stuff I want to do..

but I love it.
and I love Thomas Muller from the German National team. (:

Isn't he a cutie? ;)
Yes, I know he is.
That's my future husband. <3
or at least I wish...

the lion kinnnnng.

the good ole days.

I honestly hate most music nowadays.

I may like some artists, and they're mostly likely all alternative,

but I still hate about 80% of the big artists out there these days.

All the do is copy the old music.

Plus, music now...has no meaning.

It's all about, girls, drinking, and drugs.

Yeah, our society rocks! 

Just kidding.

Back then, music had meaning.

Most songs are about getting drunk...when years ago, the Beatles just wanted to hold a girls hand.

Where did that music go?

The music that meant something.

It just vanished, and now our society is left with retards that don't know what music TRULY is.

concentration camps.

It's sad what Hitler and the Nazi's did to Jews.

After reading tons of books...

about Jews, their personal stories, and Hitler himself...

 I know why now.

I'm just glad it's in the past,

but I do think we need to learn about it.

It says "WORK MAKES YOU FREE"

one of my favorite lyrics.

I don't know, I just love it and how her voice goes with it so great.
But the song goes like this:

"I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep,
and I'll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe.

and I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are,

I hope it's nice where you are...

and I hope the sun shines,

and it's a beautiful day,

and something reminds you...

you wish you had stayed.

you can plan on a change in weather and time,

I never planned on you changing your mind."

-Taylor Swift.

tswifttt.

someone who inspires me daily.

John Lennon..

He once said...

"Count your age by friends, not years. Count your life by smiles, not tears."

Isn't that a beautiful way to live by? I think so.

yuuuuuuuuuuuup.

winnie the pooh.

one of my all time favorites from Disney.

It brings joy to my heaaaaaart.
and I can't help but smile.